My thoughts about becoming a mom

I always knew that I wanted to be a mother and as everybody knows, I always like children. When I started getting into education and psychology, I start thinking and building the ways I would raised my children, and how I could be " the perfect mom". I had all this phylosophies, and information about child development, education, etc, you name it!
In some ways I could say, I am or was prepared. The truth is, now that I'm pregnant, I forgot about everything. I still have, somewhat, an idea of how I'm going to raised my child, but I don't think I am, or any first time mom, is 100% "ready" to become a mom, even if they been preparing to have a child for years, have a career, or a partner for a very long time.

I think you become a mother the first time you get pregnant. I became a mother the first time they told me I was pregnant. My feelings, concerns and worries make me feel like a mom, protecting her child.

I know I'm still in school, and I was not truthly ready, I still think I had, somewhat, the knowledge and preparation to have a baby. I always wanted baby, and now here it is.
I always thought, that once I get pregnant, I would do all this things, but now that I am, you actually just go with the flow. I don't know what is going to happen, even though I had read it in thousand of books. You don't know what happens until you are in that moment.

I created this blog, not only to let things out of me and share with other people, but because, one day, I'm planning to show this blog to my future baby, so he/she could read how I was feeling when she was in my womb. I want her/him to know how happy and excited I am to see his/her little face,body,etc.

I'm so happy, I have an amazing fiancee/future husband with me, a nice family and friends. I love Adam so much for being so supportive and patient, and for being happy for the both of us.

Again, I can;t say im fully prepare or ready, after all the babysitting and education I have in infants, toddlers, preschoolers, etc, etc, because I know that I would get my complete knowledge of parenting once baby Pike comes to the outside world.
I know I won't be a perfect parent, because there is not such thing. The only thing I know, is that I would love my baby so much and that I already want the best for him or her.

Love,

Xtina