My thoughts about becoming a mom

I always knew that I wanted to be a mother and as everybody knows, I always like children. When I started getting into education and psychology, I start thinking and building the ways I would raised my children, and how I could be " the perfect mom". I had all this phylosophies, and information about child development, education, etc, you name it!
In some ways I could say, I am or was prepared. The truth is, now that I'm pregnant, I forgot about everything. I still have, somewhat, an idea of how I'm going to raised my child, but I don't think I am, or any first time mom, is 100% "ready" to become a mom, even if they been preparing to have a child for years, have a career, or a partner for a very long time.

I think you become a mother the first time you get pregnant. I became a mother the first time they told me I was pregnant. My feelings, concerns and worries make me feel like a mom, protecting her child.

I know I'm still in school, and I was not truthly ready, I still think I had, somewhat, the knowledge and preparation to have a baby. I always wanted baby, and now here it is.
I always thought, that once I get pregnant, I would do all this things, but now that I am, you actually just go with the flow. I don't know what is going to happen, even though I had read it in thousand of books. You don't know what happens until you are in that moment.

I created this blog, not only to let things out of me and share with other people, but because, one day, I'm planning to show this blog to my future baby, so he/she could read how I was feeling when she was in my womb. I want her/him to know how happy and excited I am to see his/her little face,body,etc.

I'm so happy, I have an amazing fiancee/future husband with me, a nice family and friends. I love Adam so much for being so supportive and patient, and for being happy for the both of us.

Again, I can;t say im fully prepare or ready, after all the babysitting and education I have in infants, toddlers, preschoolers, etc, etc, because I know that I would get my complete knowledge of parenting once baby Pike comes to the outside world.
I know I won't be a perfect parent, because there is not such thing. The only thing I know, is that I would love my baby so much and that I already want the best for him or her.

Love,

Xtina

4th Month My lovely bump

Yes, I'm kind of showing! and it gets two sizes bigger at night! believe it or not....

16 weeks 3 days

Well, I haven't been updating my blog in a while, or couple of weeks. I was working so much and trying to go to class at night which was very difficult. I'm now on vacations! I still have class but at least I have free morning and some nights free.
I'm feeling much better. I'm still very tired but there are times when I have an incredible energy especially if it's about cleaning and organizing for my future bundle of joy.
I only had one appointment this month. It was 2 Fridays ago. it was just a routine appointment. I got to hear the baby's heart so as my mom and sister who came with me.
That was the last time I'm going to see my current doctor since he is leaving the practice! I'm planning to stay at that practice though because I really like the staff, etc.
I am not as nauseous as I was the first three months but if I don't eat at my regular times I start feeling sick. So I must eat every 6 hours. I'm not still that hungry yet and all I crave is fruit and smoothies.
I've been feeling my baby move!!!!! That's the most exciting part! It is still not as strong and it just started last week. Sometimes baby Pike moves if he/she is not fed in time! or when I'm lying on my back! or when I'm still.
Most people know I'm pregnant and I'm starting to show more! ( baby Pike is moving right now as I type, he.she likes me to be on the go all the time)
Adam is doing good and he is excited about his baby. We went to check some baby stores, just to have an idea, but didn't buy anything yet since is too early. He was so excited looking at the strollers, car sits, etc. It was so cute!
I'm so happy, and so excited about this baby.
My next ultrasound is August 17th! I'll be finding out and confirming if baby Pike is a girl or it is a boy! I can;t wait, I'm counting the days to see my little baby and to check that everything is ok!

I'll try to write more often!

xoxo

Xtina

13 weeks 1 day!

13 weeks! FIrst trimester is finally over and I can really feel it. I'm still very tired but not as much headaches and nausea. We shared the news with Leslie, Erin, Dave,Seb, Katie and Alisson. They were all so excited! It feels good to know that they are people who care about us and are excited for the two of us (now 3).
I don;t have any appoinment coming up until next week, and is just a check up bummer. I wish I could have an ultrasound every week so I could see my little baby. I still have the Doppler and now is easier to hear the heartbeat.
I did the intelligender test ( don't judge! lol) and it said girl!, of course that is just for fun and it won;t be confirm until 18-20 weeks. The 18th week will be on my bday so I'm going to ask if I can have the ultrasound then, it would be an excellent bday surprise.
Today I told my friend Carla and she was so happy, after all the turmoil that occurred these past years, we are now close which makes me really happy. I only need positive people around me, especially now. I feel so happy and I realized that I have everything I need, a supportive family, a wonderful future husband, and a baby on the way. I'm truly blessed!


More pics will be post at the end of the 4th month. I don;t know when is the next ultrasound, probably not until the 18th week :(

Thanks for reading, and sorry for my grammatical mistakes! C.A.